Ok, I give in. I miss acting. A LOT. Wish I could do back to it. But the way that my life is now, I don’t see how. They make this profession very hard to sustain and especially re-enter into. It was my life for over 14 years, that’s over half my life. Hard getting your brain used to a completely different “ending” as I saw it. I never dreamed to be a crazy famous actress, not at all actually. I just wanted to work. I loved to work.
And I miss it. So much more than words can explain.
So I will write more… Life gets busy and writing a blog seems very low on the “to do list”. Working full time, raising a little boy, attempting to have a life! But overall, very fufilling. I now have what actors call a “normal” job and to tell you the truth, I love it. There are times I miss doing what I do still LOVE to do and that is act. But the truth is, actors have to do so much and go through ridiculous things to ever actually get to act. From the auditions and constant rejection to traveling all over the world (which might sound great and it is when you are single and young, but that changes and you just feel disconected and lonely) to the hours (usually 12-17 hour work days) to the uncertainty of when you will get your next job, if ever. God, I do not miss those things. And now that I am working full time, I know my schedule and can plan vacations and trips with my little man. I find real comfort in that.
I have realized a lot of things in my recent years. One being that life is really about the people you have around you to share it with. You can have money and fame but if you don’t like yourself, you can never be happy. I know, clishay. It is, but very true and I always knew that, logically. But it’s a different story when you see it played out in your own life or someone you love. It’s been the hardest year and a half of my life but also the greatest.
So this was in no way a “funny” blog post, but I just wanted to update. Wow, it’s been over a year since I wrote in here and I feel like it was yesterday. When you get older, time really does go faster and faster…
I PROMISE to write again in the next month and (hopefully) something funny or humiliating will come out next time!
This is my first real post and I know I have a lot to say but where to begin… I have been exposed to the most ridiculous egos, situations and places most people never want to be exposed to. That being said, I wouldn’t change the way my life has unfolded at all.
I’ll do a slight recap of my most recent years.
Did a movie called “Jimmy & Judy” where I met my future husband. All problems aside, we were together for 5 years and had a beautiful child together. But that has ended now for numerous reasons and so through my experience of seeing what it’s like to be somewhat famous (my ex husband, Edward Furlong), I have decided that “the industry” is the silliest, craziest field you could ever go into.
I think I’ll share some of those situations with anyone who wants to hear them… Until next time…
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